Ajoleblon...A Cajun Tale

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Lafayette, Louisiana, United States
This journal is a bunch of rants about nothing. Mostly lighthearted happenings in the life of a woman who is very simple and who wants for nothing but greatly appreciates whatever is given. You will find nothing profound here but hopefully something that will make you laugh and that's what I enjoy doing most. Being humorous. Fight all error, but do it with good humor, patience, kindness, and love. Harshness will damage your own soul and spoil the best cause.

Tuesday, October 3, 2006

A bunch of nothing

I have successfully, without evidence, eliminated every male that I was dating. It was far easier than I thought it would be. All I did was tell them the truth. I figured telling them that their life depended on them staying away from the madness of a woman with a knife wielding tendency would do the trick. You know it’s truly remarkable how quickly they vanished. I was truly upset how little they cared about my state of well-being. They were so selfish as to only think of their lives. You just can’t find a good man these days! What ever happened to unconditional love? Putting your life into the hands of fate?

On a serious note, my medication is doing wonders for me. I see a tremendous difference in my outlook on life. I still have my emotional moments but they are so controllable and bearable now. I don’t have that feeling of dread anymore. I think that was the worst part of it all. Dreadful feelings.

The best part of all is the feelings of hope that I have now. I will all of a sudden smile and my heart will leap with a feeling of joy and hope. It’s a wonderful feeling! Sometimes I find myself laughing out loud by myself with stupid thoughts. That was unheard of before. Sometimes I wonder if I haven’t fallen off the other end? If there’s a fine line between love and hate then I’m sure there’s a fine line between sane and insane. I’ll let you know when I figure out which one I am.

Is depression a form of insanity? Please don’t answer that with "I don’t know". Research it and get back with me and if necessary lie to me. Remember the knife.

If you don’t hear from me in the near future, it’s because I have gone for my mamogram. It has been known to take them a very long time to find that part of my anatomy that requires squeezing. Most of the time they ask me why I even bother.


siennastarr said...

You know what makes me so happy?  It's the fact that you are.  Happy.  It shows in your entries.  It shows in your comments.  It just shows all over the place, here in Jland.  I can just imagine how it must be for you in the real world!  Don't sweat the small stuff, sis!  Just enjoy the fact that you are feeling like you have joined the ranks of the living again!  That you can smile and feel those sudden jolts of happiness! :)

I am happy for you!!

Big hugs

garnett109 said...

have a great happy day!

sangrialel said...

I am really glad to hear that your meds are helping you feel happy again!  Linda

tpiez4me said...

It's nice to hear that you are happy and that your meds are working for you!  That is awesome!

brainwhispers said...

Depression is a form of insanity.....so......If you were living in 18th century england you would be locked in an asylum where doctors could do lots of weird experiments with your body parts like in some old gothic horror novel like frankenstein!!!
I didnt research any of this so its all untrue!

ravenjuiced said...

Just FYI, depression is not a form of insanity, but it can be classified as a "disorder". I had the privilege of mopping floors at Pittsburgh Pshychiatric when I was at Pitt in the 80's and you'll have to take my word for it, the insane are a world apart from the depressed. I still have the scar on my shoulder where one decided to bite me because he thought I wanted his pillow.