I have successfully, without evidence, eliminated every male that I was dating. It was far easier than I thought it would be. All I did was tell them the truth. I figured telling them that their life depended on them staying away from the madness of a woman with a knife wielding tendency would do the trick. You know it’s truly remarkable how quickly they vanished. I was truly upset how little they cared about my state of well-being. They were so selfish as to only think of their lives. You just can’t find a good man these days! What ever happened to unconditional love? Putting your life into the hands of fate?
On a serious note, my medication is doing wonders for me. I see a tremendous difference in my outlook on life. I still have my emotional moments but they are so controllable and bearable now. I don’t have that feeling of dread anymore. I think that was the worst part of it all. Dreadful feelings.
The best part of all is the feelings of hope that I have now. I will all of a sudden smile and my heart will leap with a feeling of joy and hope. It’s a wonderful feeling! Sometimes I find myself laughing out loud by myself with stupid thoughts. That was unheard of before. Sometimes I wonder if I haven’t fallen off the other end? If there’s a fine line between love and hate then I’m sure there’s a fine line between sane and insane. I’ll let you know when I figure out which one I am.
Is depression a form of insanity? Please don’t answer that with "I don’t know". Research it and get back with me and if necessary lie to me. Remember the knife.
If you don’t hear from me in the near future, it’s because I have gone for my mamogram. It has been known to take them a very long time to find that part of my anatomy that requires squeezing. Most of the time they ask me why I even bother.