Ajoleblon...A Cajun Tale

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Lafayette, Louisiana, United States
This journal is a bunch of rants about nothing. Mostly lighthearted happenings in the life of a woman who is very simple and who wants for nothing but greatly appreciates whatever is given. You will find nothing profound here but hopefully something that will make you laugh and that's what I enjoy doing most. Being humorous. Fight all error, but do it with good humor, patience, kindness, and love. Harshness will damage your own soul and spoil the best cause.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Valentine's Day

I'm here to wish everyone a Happy Valentines Day! 
I was thinking that I would be spending Valentine's Day alone until I realized that today is Wednesday and I have my Holy Hour tonight so I will be spending it with the Good Lord.  Wow!  The Ulti-Mate!  As I was smiling on this thought, I realized the book I just started reading is entitled "A woman after God's own heart" by Elizabeth George.  Coincidence?  I doubt it!
For those of you out there that have a Valentine, treat them well and with love and respect. 
For those of you who are having troubling times in your relationship spend today looking for the positive instead of the negative.  You might just rekindle that spark.
For those of you who can't seem to find anything positive in the relationship that you are in maybe Valentine's Day should be the  day for you to love yourself by hitting the road.
For those of you who don't give a flying flip about Valentine's Day....  ^5
Here's a little something to occupy your thoughts until it does mean something:
I waited a lifetime to find you my soul mate and for a brief moment
YOUR thoughts were MY thoughts. 
MY goals were YOUR goals.
YOUR dreams were MY dreams. 
The love was grand, the passion unrivaled
and we both finally felt complete.

Sadly, for both of us, until we put in enough time on this planet....we may never understand the value of what was cast aside.
"Experience is the greatest teacher of all..."

Maybe...my love we will get it right next lifetime.

When we are born it begins a journey.
Along the way on this long winding path we eventually end up seeking many things.  One of which is love.  In the beginning, it is from our Mother and Father, then our family, community and so on.  Eventually, assuming everything goes right, we begin to find we have a void within us, which other forms of love can't seem to fill.

We have all known loneliness, a dark emptiness within our soul which seems to stretch for an eternity.  We feel like we are a part of nothing, just drifting aimlessly upon the sea of humanity with no destination, nor land in sight.  At times despair is like our wet clothing as we shiver cold and alone in the darkness.  To distract ourselves we dream of "The One" and how they will lift our spirits and take away the emptiness, this absence of life.

For some, eventually someone comes along and brings light to this darkness.  But as humans, sometimes we are by this time so starved to be "touched" that we unknowingly make compromises which if we were rational we would not.  We may never find our true predestined love.

Many of us now, are not in a "Soulmate" relationship.  The truth is you got tired of waiting and you settled for the best "offer" at the time.  This was your choice, and now is your Karma.  But in your heart, in your soul you know if someone is your Soulmate, for it goes beyond just love.  It is a form of joining.

When you meet your (SM) this person will have an instantaneous effect on you.  A Soulmate is someone who makes your knees go weak and you want to catch your breath.  With but a single glance they lesson your burden and with but a smile, warms your heart.  You will feel a sense of connection (affinity) with this person.  They will touch you so deeply on so many levels, you will want to share your inner most secrets.  For the first time in your life someone will make you feel almost like a god.  Once you have met your (SM) for better or sometimes worse, your life will never be the same.

One of the things which makes this experience unique is the sense of a meaningful spiritual experience.  You both feel like this is to be and that you've been together before in a past incarnation.  Normally for some, it is several months, weeks or days before physical intimacy (sex) occurs.  But when you meet your (SM) something happens, the pull or drive to become physically intimate overwhelms many, and one finds it happening basically in the initial meeting.  There's a sense of safety with this person.  You knowingly let go of your defenses as an empathic like bond is formed. Unlike other relationships, in the past, there will be no game playing or hidden agendas which plagued you in the past.

Sometimes the best way to find something, is by not looking for it.  With this in mind, you probably will meet your Soulmate when you're not looking.  Since life revels in making things difficult, you'll probably meet them in the morning when you are on the grave yard shift.  For many it will be after a bad relationship or several bad relationships.  If you're lucky you won't have to wait until you are 50 to meet your (SM).  But if you do, well at least you'll appreciate it's significance more than someone in there twenties.  You have had the benefit of experience, the perspective of age and the knowledge, such love is once in a life time.

The point here is "Serendipity", so forget about taking that "Singles" bus tour to the circus.  Sure you'll meet a lot of nice people and perhaps you really should get out, but just be prepared to .....well, meet some real clowns.

The universe is a funny place, don't be surprised if your Soulmate is older or younger.  Soulmate's don't care about age.  How much older or younger?  From observations, expect years like 7 to 20.  In a true (SM) relationship it won't matter, if anything it will make you stronger.  Life is not neat, nor has it ever been.  So why should it start now?

There is something about the Passion you share with an (SM).  It goes beyond just "body parts".  For a moment in time you two are the only ones who exist in the universe.  Hearts beating in rhythm as your souls have intertwined themselves becoming one.  Your personal energies meld and you feel the flame of creation move through you like a wave of the ocean on hot summers day.  Soon you begin to lose track of where you begin and your (SM) will know how and where to touch you.  It will be different, intense and more gratifying than lovers of your past.

They will look into your eyes and you will feel your soul open wide.  For some people, there is the "Rush".  All the love, all the lust, all the need will surge forth from  your soul like captives from a prison.  At this moment you will know what it means to get lost within someone's eyes.  You will experience a touch you have never felt before and your lust will rise to new levels.  Often, in the case of true Soulmates, you can get so carried away you can actually hurt yourself. (I know she caused me to pull several muscles one night)  But in the end as  you  lay there, as the warm afterglow begins to fade, you will realize what just happened was not sex.  "Sex, simply doesn't feel this good."

To put it simply, your (SM) will be able to make love to you in ways no one else will be able to match.

It is within our nature as human beings to fuck things up.  The very thing which makes Soulmate's love so special, is also the one thing which can bring it down.  The simple fact is, the unparalleled love and passion is terrifying to many people.

We learned how to have relationships from our parents or primary caregiver.  If your primary caregivers relationships were dysfunctional, then chances are so are yours.  There are many people in this world who in relationships maintain an extreme amount of emotional control.  They take pride in the fact their partner is madly in love with them.  By being able to "wrap them around their finger" they feel safer.  Thus, all their relationships become based on this pattern.  Then one day their (SM) comes along and wham!  Quickly they discover the control over their heart and the relationship is gone.  Now they must relate on a level playing field and for many they run.

For those who are runners let me tell you what you already know, it doesn't work!  You can move to the other side of the planet, marry someone else and fill your spare time up with some cause, but the simple truth is, your (SM) will be there in your soul.  No matter how hard you try, no matter how busy you make yourself, everyday they will enter your thoughts.  So many try to fuck them out, but that doesn't work either, for it becomes just sex and as you lay there afterwards you will feel empty and cheated.

A good measure of this, is a simple test.  After you have just made love with the person who you are using as a safe substitute, do you find yourself wanting to "get away" from them?  A kind of "ok...I got off, now get away from me feeling..."  This is of course if you can still get off.  In some cases your orgasms are just barely, if you are lucky.  When you were with your (SM) didn't you feel the need to remain close, to pull each other tightly and melt into each other?  That's the difference and one which is very hard to hide from yourself.

If you run you make the conscious choice to doom yourself and the other person to be haunted for the rest of your lives.  Sure, eventually you may fall in love with someone who fits your preconceived image or expectation (cute, rich or successful) of what your partner should be.  But as time moves on you never forget.  You always wonder.

The Soulmate relationship is worth putting up a fight, but there comes a time when you have done all you can and you can do no more.  At some point the one who runs has to choose to stop and come to their senses.  Life sadly is cruel, just as it is grand.  Short of burying your child, losing your Soulmate is indescribable anguish.

It is like having half of your tender soul ripped from your body.  You feel lost, abandoned and betrayed.  There's a sense of panic which permeates your very being and personal existence.  You find yourself saying "never again".  You did something you never had done before, you willingly let another in, all the way.

Eventually, after the shock, the depression comes, then the anger and you just want it to end.  You wish you could just stop feeling but you can't, and no matter how much you drink, smoke or snort you can't make the pain go away.  Yes, regular love hurts too and badly.  But when you lose a Soulmate, no matter how enlightened, wise, talented or strong in both will and spirit you are; it is devastating.

Many of us sadly, fail to recover and we never truly "love" again.  Those who are really weak try to kill themselves.  Be it with a car speeding on a wet winding road after drinking or "J" walking on 42nd St., to just taking one too many pills.  The end result is the same if we succeed, suicide is suicide whether you leave a note or not.

In the end, we don't want to even see the person, because that just tears open the wound over and over.  Right or wrong, that's just the way it is.  Eventually, you go on with your life and you stop hating them because like you.....they never forget either.

Sometimes life gives us a happy ending.  Sometimes, after trying to get their Soulmate out of their minds, the "runner" comes to realize what they had lost.  A few are wise enough to do whatever it takes to correct the situation and get back into their Soulmates arms.  Hopefully, not enough time has gone by that the situation is salvageable.  But often times it is not.  All I can say is TRY.  With Soulmates there is NO pride, and there CAN be forgiveness.  We are destined to meet our Soulmates, what you do after is "your" choice.

We are born into this world alone and we begin our journey.  If we are lucky we find the right partner.  "THE ONE" along the way.  With this person we grow, learn and experience the wonders of human existence.  They become a part of us, as we become a part of them.  Eventually, our journey must end and as we are born we die, alone.  But in between those two points we hopefully have learned, experienced and gained some wisdom with the chance.

"A person who risks nothing...Loves nothing. Therefore; anything worth my love is worth a fight"  -Magic-


Everyone longs to give himself to another human being:
  to have a deep soul relationship  with another; to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.
But God says to the Christian,  no, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content being loved by me alone.
I love you my child.  Until you discover that only through me lies your satisfaction, you will be capable of the perfect human relationship
I have planned for you.  You will never be united with another until you are united with me, exclusive of anyone or anything else. 
Exclusive of any desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan, one that you cannot imagine. 
I want you to have the best.  Please allow me to bring it to you. 
You must keep watching me, expecting the greatest things. 
Keep experiencing the satisfaction of what I am; keep learning and listening to the things I tell you.
You must wait.  Do not be anxious.
Do not look around at the things others have gotten or received from me.
You must keep looking off and away.
Look up to me, or you'll miss the things I want to show you and then when you are ready,
I'll surprise you with love far more wonderful than you would ever have dreamed. 
You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready
I am working even this very minute to have you both ready at the same time until you are both living exclusively for ME and the life I have prepared for you, you will not be able to experience the love that reflects your relationship with me, PERFECT LOVE. 
I love you utterly. 
Believe and be satisfied!



garnett109 said...

Happy Valentines Day!
Have a great day!

gaboatman said...

Very interesting thoughts on love and that one special soul mate.  From my experience all written here is true.  You may not have a soul mate today, Sam, but you have friends who wish you very good things on this Valentine's Day. I'm one of them.

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jckfrstross said...

Happy Valentines day:)


swibirun said...

Hope you had a hot date with the Lord;)

Happy Belated Valentine's Day!

Have a great weekend!

swibirun said...

Hope you had a hot date with the Lord;)

Happy Belated Valentine's Day!

Have a great weekend!

hadonfield78 said...

This was beautiful. Thank you for sharing it.

brenlor1966 said...

OK Sharlene...I am speechless after reading this...