Bye Bye 2005

As the New Year approaches and resolutions draw near, I have to ask myself if I want to be at the same place this time next year. If not, then what do I need to do to propel myself into a new direction? New Year's is always a time of reflection for me. Looking back on the year and taking assessments of myself and what I have accomplished. Looking back one last time on the sadness and crying, but also looking at all the joys and laughing. Ringing in the new and leaving behind the old things that are no longer useful to the person I want to become.

I have thought about this and the one thing I know without a doubt is, I want to work on my feelings inside. I would like to feel my mind and my soul in sync with one another. I want to feel beautiful inside and at peace with myself. I want to see what others see when they delve within my depths. I want to appreciate what God created in me and spring forth a joy that glows to all that surround me. I want a spiritual cleansing of body, mind and soul.

I also want to see the good in all that come into my path and appreciate what God has created in every human being. I want to see the good within everyone even the ones who appear to have not one iota of saving grace within them. I want to show them the goodness that God placed in their soul.

In 2006, I do not want to be self-seeking and selfish. I want to give more of myself. I want to live 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient

Love is kind

It is not jealous

nor pompous

it is not inflated

it is not rude

it does not seek it's own interests

it is not quick tempered

it does not brood over injury

it does not rejoice over wrongdoing

but rejoices with the truth

It bears all things

believes all things

hopes all things

endure all things

Love never fails.

And while I'm living Corinthians,  I want to find somewhere on this earth Solomon's Song of Songs 3:1-5

All night long on my bed
I looked for the one my heart loves;
I looked for him but did not find him.

I will get up now and go about the city,
through its streets and squares;
I will search for the one my heart loves.
So I looked for him but did not find him.

The watchmen found me
as they made their rounds in the city.
"Have you seen the one my heart loves?"

Scarcely had I passed them
when I found the one my heart loves.
I held him and would not let him go
till I had brought him to my mother's house,
to the room of the one who conceived me.

Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you
by the gazelles and by the does of the field:
Do not arouse or awaken love
until it so desires.

I wish everyone a Joyous and Happy New Year. May God reign down his blessings on you and your family. May you all see the beauty within yourself and smile for all the world to see that, indeed, you are good!