Faith, hope and love

.....continued....

I have always lived by the motto "expect nothing and you won't be disappointed".  Little did I know that this discouraged hope in my life and without hope there is no joy.  A VERY wrong and abnormal way of thinking, therefore, I have figured out how to incorporate love, hope and faith into my life using my cell phone.

I have programmed into my phone some very special people in my life.  Now instead of "Brandi" showing up when she calls it says "LOVE" is calling.  I have FAITH calling to let me know that HOPE will soon be a dialing my number.

Ah....now I have it all. 

Oh!  Except CHARITY....who out there would like to program me as charity in their phone??

 

 

Battlefield of the Mind

I thought I'd pass through J-land and give you guys a little heads up on something.

It seems my mind is abnormal. 

Abnormal you say?  Yes indeed!

I haven't figured out just how abnormal it is but I will let you know as soon as I progress through the book I am reading by Joyce Meyer.  She seems to think I need to think about what I think about.  Once I start thinking about what I think about I may be on the road to solving my problems and be on my way to freedom.

I am also going to discover that the condition of my mind changes.  Go figure that one out!    Now I'm wondering when my mind is normal and when is it abnormal?  I need to find out what normal is so I can deal with the abnormal thoughts.  Oh Lord!  I'm confused  now.

For example, a critical, judgemental and suspicious mind (sing it Elvis) should be considered abnormal. Hmmm....see?  She says I'm abnormally thinking.  All of my problems are rooted in wrong thinking.  Some people are addicted to drugs....not me! I'm addicted to wrong thinking.

Oh my God...the next chapter is going to really open my mind's eye to how truly abnormally thinking I have thunk through my life.  I'm all thunked out now...

To be continued...next chapter...

Thine eyes of thine heart is thine mind....or in English:

the eyes of the heart is the mind.

Anyway

What an awesome message and song from Martina McBride!

 

You can spend your whole life building something from nothing
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway
You can chase a dream that seems so out of reach and you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway


God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway, I do it anyway

This world's gone crazy and it's hard to believe that tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway
You can love someone with all your heart, for all the right reasons, and in a moment they can choose to walk away
Love'em anyway


You can pour your soul out singing a song you believe in that tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway, sing it anyway

I sing, I dream, I love, anyway,

Ponds and Pigs

 

My dear Joseph you are my angel!  Thank you my dear dear friend....

I love you! 

 

I see my reflection in the POND and it's smiling back at me!

Another Chapter

Another chapter ends in my life and now I can start a new book....

Thank you guys in J-land for being here for me in the last two years of my journaling.  Reading my words even though only I could work through my problems.  It has been a source of healing for me and now I can move on.

God Bless you all.

 

Yippee

I know...ya'll are saying not again,  but this time I come with an explanation.  I will let my past journal entries tell the story. 

Into my life has come someone from my past that happens to be the only person I have failed to forget no matter how hard I've tried. 

 I must also tell you that the first mysterious journal entry Friday had nothing to do with him but ironically it played right into the future ones.

Here's my story:

One Last Tribute

 

Yippee

If I die today

I would indeed die a happy woman.

Yippee

Oh My God!  Oh My God!  Oh My God!

I dun losst my freaking mind!

Yippee

God is so good!  Sometimes you wake up in the morning and you think it's going to be another same old same old...and then God bounces one of his surprises on you!

Yippee....I'm sooooooooooo happy and I bet you guys want to know why?  Later!

My life in a song....LOL

Just a little song that sums up my life. LOL    

 

 Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

Words and music by PATTY SMYTH and GLEN BURTNIK

I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
just to have sombody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
there beside you where I used to lay

And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

The above lyrics are reprinted without permission. They were taken directly from the album sleeve, and reproduced exactly.

The weather

Burrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Who'd a thunk it?

There are just some things in your lifetime you never expect your father to tell you or ask you. One such thing occurred with me today.

My father is here for the weekend to visit his mother who is my 94 year old grandmother. He was up and had left for the nursing home before I even arose. When I got into the bathroom this morning I noticed all my vanity drawers were open but I figured Dad was looking for something and being old and a man *snort*, he didn’t shut the drawers properly.

Even though it is Saturday, I had to go into work to do a little book work and when I returned my Dad was back from the nursing home and these words came out of his mouth and I literally ROFLMAO. 

"Sharlene, I hope you don’t mind, I borrowed one of your "kotex".

Now we must remember, he, being in his 70's has only known them as "kotex" and not "pads" because that’s what they were called way back when I was a youngster and living in his household.

A little history. My dad had and beat prostate cancer 3 years back and he has a problem with leakage. It seems he forgot his pads at home. I had the biggest chuckle over that because it was something I did not ever expect. Dad has always been such a manly man and you realize when they get older those things just don't bother them any longer.  They accept it.  It also cleared up the mystery of the opened vanity drawers.

Mardi Gras

January 6.....the beginning of the Mardi Gras Carnival season.

Can't keep New Orleans down for long!

NOLA.com: Mardi Gras Videos

Buttocks and such

I went to confession today, so I am back in the good graces of thy Lord. It’s great being Catholic! The priest told me to steer clear of the sins of the flesh and to continue praying for divine impotence in my life. Avoiding temptation is the key, so in reverence of that, I parked my buttocks at the front of the church tonight. It kept my mind on the altar and the priest instead of on the butts of the many young men stationed in front of me. All the old peoples sit in the front so I was clear of temptation. Not to say old people don’t have nice asses...I am not here to imply that. I’ve seen some nice old asses but today none were sitting in front of me to tempt my eyes off the gospel according to Matthew. The only close call I had was when the young ones marched themselves up to communion but I held fast to my rosary beads and prayed for the grace to avoid near occasion of sin. I’m not saying it worked butt.....

Divine Impotence

In my previous journal entry, I alluded to a gift I would be receiving New Year’s Eve. Little did I know how much of a gift it would be nor how much it would reveal to me about myself and my creator. God provides people in your life to teach you things about yourself and how much you can handle with his help and love.

I met a very extraordinary person this New Year’s Eve. Someone I connected with on many levels during many hours of phone conversation. He was someone I laughed with and shared beautiful uncharted territory.

I tried to tell him through all these conversations that talking on the phone and actually meeting someone in person is two different things. He was so convinced that everything would be picture-book perfect and chemistry would abound. I, being the veteran of this, knew otherwise, but I left him with his fantasies.

We met at my home after waiting what seemed like years instead of weeks. The chemistry was immediate and the connection was there but somewhere in my heart I knew something was not quite right with all this. There was the ten year age difference that I kept harping on but he kept pooh-poohing away time and time again. I think we both saw and felt the age difference immediately. He, looking 10 years younger than his 38 and my feeling grandmotherly, I don’t think I could overlook it but I gave it one hell of a whirl.

We spent New Year’s Eve wrapped in denial. Enjoying the bliss of chemistry. Sometime during the middle of New Year’s Day, reality set in. Something he saw in me previously had changed for him. I felt it and understood it. I asked God to please not let anything happen between us that either one of us would regret and through divine impotence he granted my wish.

What did I learn? The capacity for which I can care about a person and wish for them the best journey in life. I learned honesty and connection that doesn’t have to end in the pursuits of sexual activity or a long term relationship. I learned about the decency of a man beyond all comprehension. I learned about the love of God for his creatures if only one will ask for what is right. What a wonderful gift from God.

Alix, you are a beautiful person and I respect your honesty and thank you for the brief time we spent together. God has his reasons and for just a moment my heart soared.